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 green pastures 
Our little business originated 25 years ago, when I decided to stay home with my children
& care for them at home myself, so I started our family business.
This has been a very fullfilling business for my family. Our love of animals & the responsibility
it taught my children has been a wonderful experience. Since I started this business after my 1st marriage didn't
work & was a single mother most of this time. It really was our life. I married again only for it to end not much
better than the1st. My 2nd husband died of lung cancer at 40 years old, then I lost his son 5/10/02 at the age of 17, in an
auto accident, heartbreaking! But the busiuness was still here, even though I had lost my desire to continue on with
it. My good friends helped me out in this time. What would I have done without them! Thank You friends & family! It
still is very hard, but the business is what we all loved, especially my son that parished. Hopefully my daughter can carry
on, since health issues have forced me to retire. (Update I had open heart surgery 8/21/07 and had my aortic valve replaced
now I'm hoping to get back in the swing of things)
Here is a picture of My daughter & I. back a few years ago when we were visiting the Black Hills.
My son, my love for you will never fade away
I will cherish my memories of you each and every day
You left this world far too soon, you never wanted to go, but yet
I could see the pain inside of you, the pain you tried not to show
I wish there was something that I could have said or done
Your life should not be over, for it had only just begun
You were so kind and sensitive, a special person through and though
You tried so hard to put up a front, but I always knew the real you
My life will never be the same and neither my son, will I
For when you went away a part of me did die
I would give anything to touch you, to hold you, to see your beautiful face
I only hope and pray that you are finally at peace and in a better place
Keep my memory with you, For memories never die; I will be there with you, When you look across the sky. I
will be there in the clouds, In the birds that fill the air; In the beauty of a fragrant rose, You will find my memory
there. You will feel me in the tenderness, Of a tiny baby's touch; You will hear me if you listen, In the twilight's
gentle hush. When your hearts are heavy, And you feel that you are alone; Just reach down deep inside of you, For
your heart is now my home. I will always be with you, I will never go away; For I will live on in your hearts, Forever
and a day. 
What a Grieving Mother Really Thinks…
Hello old friend,
Oh yes you know
I lost my child a while ago.
No, no please Don’t look away
And change the subject. It’s
ok.
You see at first, I couldn’t feel,
It took so long, but now it’s real.
I hurt so much inside you see.
I need to talk, Come sit with me?
You see, I was numb for so very long,
And people said, “My, She is so strong”.
They did not know I couldn’t feel,
My broken heart made it all unreal.
But then one day, as I awoke
I clutched my chest, began to choke,
Such a scream, such a wail, Broke from me
My child! My child! The
horror of reality.
But everyone has moved on you see,
everyone except for me.
Now, when I need my friends most of all,
Between us there now stands a wall.
My pain is more than they can bear,
When I mention my child, I see their blank stare.
“But I thought you were over it, their eyes seem to say,”
No, no, I can’t listen to this, not today.
So I smile and pretend, and say, “Oh, I’m ok”.
But inside I am crying, as I turn away.
And so my old friend, I shall paint on a smile,
As I have from the start, You never knowing all the while,
All I’ve just said to you in my heart.
Written by: Kelly Cummings http://www.geocities.com/for_grieving_moms/
My sons philosophy........ Life's journey is not to arrive at our grave safely in a well preserved body but, rather to
skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting "Holy Shit, !"
THIS SITE IS DEDICATED TO MY SON WHO I MISS MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF, THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER ONE LIKE HIM. HE WAS BRAVE,
DEPENDABLE, HONEST, HARD WORKER AND ALWAYS THEIR FOR HIS FRIENDS AND FAMILY, ALSO A JOKESTER, THAT SOMETIMES WOULD ANNOY HIS
MOM JUST A BIT, BUT I'D GIVE ANYTHING TO HAVE HIM ANNOYING ME NOW! http://jds_website.tripod.com/JD2.html
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